Honestly

I'm gonna be vulnerable here. Show my flesh. We all know it's there.

We got to Changchun (our new city) 9 days ago. The trip here wasn't bad. A short flight and a fairly short drive. Our friends/neighbors/teammates picked us up and showed us to our new home. When they opened the door, I could see wooden floors. I was so excited! The past 2 years, we've dealt with tile floors that have caused many bruises and tears. Then we got a tour of the apartment. I was a little shocked. But not in a good way.

I could go into a list of the things that shocked me, but I won't. It's not needed. You know why? Because that just feeds my fleshly desires even more. Complaining. Whining. Thinking I deserve better. Expecting to deserve better. That's not a pretty place to be. There's a great Book that talks a lot about pride. I think I need a serious review.

Michael and I got some complaints off our chest that first night. How would we make things work? Why did it have to be this way for us? Why couldn't we have gotten so-and-so's apartment?

Because that's not what He wanted. HE has a plan. And right now, this is it. Be content with it. Trust Him. It's all He asks me to do. Trust that He knows what He's doing.

We started each day of orientation with a devo this week. It was good for my soul. Each day, He whispered something to me about our housing situation. Am I completely over it? No. Have I stopped complaining? No. But I am more content than I was 9 days ago.

He's working in my heart to show me it's more than just the space I live in. It's so much more. Like souls to be freed. Like neighbors to befriend. Like a language to learn.

I'm being humbled daily. May it continue.