I feel in a very limbo-y stage right now. I want to spend as much time as possible with friends and family, and am doing that. But I also want to be available for how God wants to use me. But then I think..nah, we'll just be here a little while longer, why start? I'll wait til I get to China, then see what He'll do. But why should I wait? I'm not even promised tomorrow! But how does He want to use me? Obviously staying at home with Josiah is huge; I understand that. But I want to be around people so badly. Poor into other girls' lives. Help mend marriages. Love on the outcasts. Counsel teenagers. Am I supposed to do this with a baby in tow?
I just wonder what He wants me to do. Right here. Right now.
Ready....speak, Lord! And may I have the ears to listen....
I hear you. Finding the combination of time, energy and opportunity is a long-term tension you are walking into. Wish I had some wisdom for you... You have my empathy at any rate!
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